<3

before i write and explain, ive become a part of a new networking
website
that is quite interesting
simply ask me anything you like and ill answer truthfully
http://www.formspring.me/helloneek

ive decided to do something slightly different with this post
im going to write about my best friend, my lifeline, my happiness and
the
one person i can laugh about anything with
her name is caitlin susannah fahey and she is in the simplest terms,
incredible
shes the girl at school im immature with
the one who travels with me on long days
the one who makes me the sweetest books, pictures and letters.
ive known her since the year seven sports carnival where we claimed to
be
each others stalkers.
we dress as vampires and clowns, make videos about shoes and how they
are
somehow animals
we make fairy bread
ive known her almost six years, ill know her for another six
and another
and forever. i just simply cannot explain fully how much she means to
me,
when ive lost love, friends, hope and ambition, she has been there with
the most unusual personality to make me smile again. i cannot depend on
anyone else the way that i can with her.
she is my muffin, my chocolate, raspberry, lemon and lime, my sunshine
splash, my egg sandwich, my failsafe, my amusement in cafs, the girl
who
wears vampire fangs with me, goes to the beach with me at 6am, cries
during movies shes seen many times
i simply adore her, shes my best friend and ill attempt to be there for
her as much as she has for me as i wouldnt be here without her<3

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I cant see what anyone can see in anyone else, but you
january eighteenth, 2010
I love you

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distractions are named quitw appropriately
obviously since my last post so much has happened
it impossible for such an extensive amount of time to pass without any
news to tell or events to detail about
although a few small facts withh suffice for now
im seventeen
school has returned and im completing my hsc, final year
im considering university
I have a boyfriend, zac jory is the most incredible boy I've come across
and I plan to keep him
im becoming more and more disappointed in myself though, im making a
note to change this
im remembering what its like to feel a deadline
I suppose these challenges are what make us stronger
physically and emotionally
im going to try as much as I can to come through this with no regrets.

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I never realise how much time has passed until the next time I write to
myself
im hoping this is for real, the doubts are passing and im beginning to
feel something more definite
school has returned, holidays have fully passed and I appreciate how
much spare time I actually had
two days of school have concluded and im finding myself already buried
and pressure and expectations
four days until my seventeenth birthday
five days until my birthday party
and I also feel as if people may be attending simply because they're
invited rather than wanting to celebrate this day.
at this moment many thoughts are crossing my mind regarding anything
that could be, was, may be
positives, negatives and all in between
im putting everything into this even though I may seem hesitant
I know this is worth the wait, it has to be
or it isn't actually anything at all