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I never realise how much time has passed until the next time I write to
myself
im hoping this is for real, the doubts are passing and im beginning to
feel something more definite
school has returned, holidays have fully passed and I appreciate how
much spare time I actually had
two days of school have concluded and im finding myself already buried
and pressure and expectations
four days until my seventeenth birthday
five days until my birthday party
and I also feel as if people may be attending simply because they're
invited rather than wanting to celebrate this day.
at this moment many thoughts are crossing my mind regarding anything
that could be, was, may be
positives, negatives and all in between
im putting everything into this even though I may seem hesitant
I know this is worth the wait, it has to be
or it isn't actually anything at all