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hello summer, hello rain
recently I've been beginning to think about how others see me and what I
may have done to create this image
do people see me as trustworthy, caring and nice?
maybe im nothing like that at all
perhaps im awkward, confronting and insecure
regardless of how other perceive me, I don't know who I am myself
I've also become aware that im really not a truthful person, not so much
in a negative way
but I believe more so that people see me as more of a nice person than I
really am
I talk to people I don't like talking to,
I spend time with people I can't stand being around,
I lie about my feelings to those who I should be most truthful to
and why?
I believe its all connected to some sort of positive image im trying to
create
I want others to like me, who actually wants to be disliked
but now im confronted with the confusion of the essential problems
is it better to be truthful and hurt
or be someone you're not in order to save someones feelings
but essentially make yourself more miserable
these thoughts are distracting me, I need a resolution