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the weathers warm, the days are short
walking
working
movies
spending time with my sister
im appreciating having these distractions
the last thing I want is time to dwell on the last few weeks
but the holidays are flying by and I have nothing to show for it
im earning money I don't have a chance to spend
im seeing people who I don't trust
and I spent so much time with the boy who really doesn't even want me
I want some sort of result from everything
I want something worthwhile to work for
I want him to actually talk to me without me having to ask
I want to have a friend who doesn't care about anything materialistic
and is as content as I am with wasting time just for the memories
I want someone to tell me that what im doing is okay
I feel as if the choices im making are either jeopardising my own or
somebody elses happiness
a slight dose of reassurance would be ever so helpful on an afternoon
like this