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a consecutive amount of days where happiness concludes in confusion
neither negative or positive
just thoughtful
I've spent the past two days with him
each making me realise that this isn't something I want to lose,
he isn't.
he makes me smile, laugh
everything that seems like nothing
but is something to me
but the thoughts plague me
am I good enough, is there actually something here
is this temporary
but to every problem, there is always the obvious solution
essentially easier
yet nobody takes it
all there is to do is ask, question
and answers will be given
why do we insist on troubling ourselves just in case an uncomfortable
yet miniscule situation can come from it
miscommunication is a key word
im scared to know the truth
im worried I'll say something wrong
I don't want to be avoided but I feel like I am
I don't want to be too hopeful but I know its too late for that
and I know this is something worth keeping, considering there is
anything
all my time I devote to him
no matter whether I see him
no matter whether I talk to him
he's a priority now
and I really like it this way
for now, until im able to take control of this
ill allow the worries to consume me
im hoping for the best