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im wasting away, away from you
the words to describe how im feeling are rapidly becoming limited and
meaningless
although ecstatic could apply
currently it is just past one am, my day yesterday consisted of visiting
zac
it was a lovely day of beach, little miss sunshine, losing my third lip
piercing because of him, falling asleep and wondering about how ham is a
colour
> ____<
im not quite sure I understand
even though im appreciating him, this, the situation
the fears of abandonment and distance continue to plague me as this
progresses into something more
if I could have one thing, it would be security
I crave the most the one thing I am consistently denied
tonight I also baked chocolate and caramel brownies, played three games
of pictionary and said farewell to my sister for another night
each day is no longer a countdown until the school year begins
but rather until ill next see him, and be content once again
these feelings of self doubt, insecurity and misjudgement surely must
fade
along with every single memory along the way
I would erase it in one second if only I had the opportunity
but now im faced with this challenge
with an unclear insight on how to approach it and proper explanations
for my extravagent thoughts
time is the deciding factor, im always the victim
this will pass and he will be here
I couldn't ask for anything else