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juxtaposed emotions colliding as the holidays draw to a close
im completely content with zac jory <3
doubts once had are slowly fading
im accepting and am slowly becoming familiar with reality
bcoming comfortable with how things are
in contrast is the thought of returning to school for the remainder of
my hsc year
its actually quite terrifying
perhaps I would feel more comfortable if my holidays had been more of
what I had hoped they would be
although the past week has been wonderful
he is everything I've hoped he would be
if only the rest of the holidays had been this fulfilling
three days remaining of the summer holidays
an excessive amount of homework
an awfully dreaded australia day
and zac jorys seventeenth birthday :)
im trying my best to make it the best birthday even though I won't be
able to see him on the actual day
im still getting used to all of these emotions
finding ways to work around them without causing confliction
its becoming a much simpler task now
im also looking forward to seeing caitlin again
she returned from europe this morning
I failed to receive her postcard from paris
it must have just become lost somwhere
but im hoping to be able to see her before school returns :)
im feeling a simple form of optimism
simplicity