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this really couldn't be anymore surreal
my hopes have all been fulfilled
my happiness is increasing and once again im enjoying life without
feeling pressures or having to be conscious of every decision I make
after it being almost a week since I saw him last
I finally saw him yesterday afternoon
I can't explain how happy this made me
I can't explain how happy he makes me
the fact that he ties my stomach into knots obviously isn't ideal but it
forces me to recognise how special this is and how lucky I am to have
found him in the way I have
he's different to every other that I've considered to be "perfect"
unlike them, he is realistically perfect
they made me feel insignificant and is I had to be so much more
things are comfortable around him
this situation is so simple yet so astounding
im seeing him today
im still going to be cautious
im sure about this, yet I've been sure of the others
I can't set myself up to be let down again
I know that won't happen this time but I've also thought that before
im going to see how this works, at the same time hoping everything goes
well
I wouldn't be able to stand hurting him
neither could I bear being let down again
but nevertheless, this is what I've been waiting for
this is what I need now