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how long has it been since I wrote here
in real time its been two days but it feels like so much more time has
past
considering so much more has happened than I could have ever
anticipated
like water flowing into lungs; im flowing through these days
that couldn't be any more appropriate right now
I believe that with holidays being so near that im becoming careless and
thoughtless
most recently im beginning to question my personal morals
I've been making split decisions and the most recent is tearing me
between mixed thoughts
I can't hide the truth here, like I can to everyone else
making a blog devoted to my thoughts and opinions,
and simply writing what I think people would want to hear would be both
pointless and pathetic
today can either go horribly wrong or exceptionally well
only time will tell I suppose
but im also placed with the thoughts that maybe im too opinionated
does that count when you don't say your opinions though? im not sure
but in one day I've lost all respect for one person I've admired for
almost seven years
placed in my situation, I assume some people would take the opposite
team
but then again, me and my diminishing personal morals
who are we to judge others?