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its christmas daily
im working for the majority of it
I awoke to my mother on the phone crying about how much of a failure she
believes she is
awoke to realise I should have gone to sleep earlier
and awoke to determine that im missing him more each day.
im not celebrating christmas until tonight
but so far one of my greatest christmas wishes may actually come true
its not materialistic
I just want someone and to be content and feel security and happiness
around them
im beginning to feel that I may have found that
there's only one positive right now
but recently it has overtaken and every negative aspect seems
insignificant
it can only get better, at least im hoping
merry christmas