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another morning arrives, today in the form of christmas eve but is once
again ruined by my mother
regardless of how optimistic I am, the doubts continue to flood me and
im left unsure of my options in most aspects and situations
christmas eve and my family is more torn apart than I think I've ever
seen them
christmas eve and my friends are fighting, I don't know what to say to
any of them
from what I can find, there is only one situation in my life right now
providing me with hope
something for me to be excited for
I only want to see him
I only want to be near him and ill be content
this year, christmas could possibly the worst
everything is surrounded with chaos
but with the prospect of happiness I can never find
im disregarding the negative, I can't deal with it anymore
I have to now do what's for the best not what will make everyone happy,
that's never the best option
he could be the reason that the conclusion of this year is amazing when
in reality its the falling of everything I know