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the truth hurts, of course
but im helping
I've made the decision that prolonging the truth that could make or
break someone is never the correct choice
I would rather hurt myself than hurt them
why would anyone take any action towards anything with that definitive
moral
sure, ill make myself miserable as long everyone else is happy and won't
notice me at all
no, that's now how things should or will be from now on
I've been honest, they were hurt and that was it
no more pressure, no more expectations, no more guilt
freedom to make decisions without having to consider them first
it was never the right path to take
the past few days have proven to me that no matter how much I crave
independence,
ill always need someone to look out for me
in this case and every other in my life, its my sister
she's recently made me realise I need to take more responsibility for my
actions,
make decisions on what is best overall not best for that moment
no effects have yet arisen from this
but im expecting something positive
I've also spent some time with caitlin, one of my closest friends
we've grown up recognising each other as cupcake and muffin and sharing
a similar interest in writing exceptionally long and useless letters to
each other
we went to the city yesterday, the beach this morning and town this
afternoon
we made a playlist consisting of songs that would be appropriate for any
occassion, this consisted of;
chocolate raspberry lemon and lime, ice cream, cartoon heroes, fireflies
and lucky.
we filled our night with vampire fangs, nerd glasses and eyeliner draw
moustaches, of course.
this time I've spent with her has confirmed my thoughts that I need to
spend more time with my friends that have been there for me,
I really don't need more friends, more promises, more disappointments
I basically only need stability and good memories,
both of which my dependable friends can provide
a further addition to this post and my thoughts is a boy, he's lovely.
I spend time with him, im happy
I talk to him, I smile
he appreciates me, im content
but this time it should be different, it must
I won't make anything from something that isn't there
I have time and I have patience to accompany it
I feel a bit hurried in regards of preparations for christmas, but
that's hardly a reason for concern
school has concluded for this year
and I have time to appreciate the simplicity life can offer me